Working on working

The past several months I've been on a mission of self discovery. My life situation has changed and it's caused me to take a look at every aspect of my life and reexamine it. Like I mentioned in my last post, I've been spending a lot of conscious time getting to know who I really am, instead of who I thought I was. It's been surprisingly difficult. It's not always easy to be totally honest and to allow who you truly are to come out. Some aspects are easy, sometimes it's hardly a thought, yup, I like that. Other times, the subject or question maybe complicated and the answer isn't always so clear, or still other times maybe I have such a strong reaction to something and I cannot figure out why I feel so strongly about something. Does that even make sense? (I'm both asking that question to you, and to myself... does anything really make sense to me?) :)

Anyways, because I've been much more aware of self discovery I'm trying to make an effort to spend more time doing the things I've learned bring me joy. One of those things for me has been writing, obviously blog writing is great, but novel writing more specifically. I talked about in a previous post that I was going to write a novel and be intentional about going after my goal.  I've tried several times in the past to write a novel, but slowly the "novel"ty- hahaha wore off and I would lose motivation 50-60 pages into the book. Thinking about all of my partially completed books makes me infuriated at myself. So, this time I set myself up in a different way. I'm approaching writing this book in a completely different way than all my others in the past. I am finding a lot of joy in working on it, doing something different and taking that time for myself. I'm working on working. I'm working on making work a priority instead of something I'll do if there is time and energy at the end of the day (which shockingly enough there never is, groundbreaking right?)

Working on work is something I've missed. I'm amazed at how much having a project to work on changes my state of mind. So many times we shy away from work or we do whatever we can to get out of work, but the mental and emotional boost that work gives us is undeniable. I feel better when I'm working on something for myself. Do you?

What are you working on?