Being More Intentional

Lately its seems like I've had so much on my mind. I've had so many ideas and dreams that keep pestering me, but in the most unorganized way. I can't say that I have plans and processes worked out, but I've decided that would be a great place to start. While listening to a few different podcasts, I had the realization that instead of waiting for the whole plot of things to unveil itself in my head, I should start trying to be more intentional with my time and my mental energy. I'm never going to organize my thoughts and develop a solid plan if I don't take the time to work through things. It's like I'm constantly bothered that the kitchen is a mess, but instead of taking 15 minutes and cleaning it, I spend 20 whining and complaining that it's dirty.

I heard an idea once that said "If it takes less than two minutes to do, do it now." So many times I am guilty of taking more time procrastinating the task than the actual task would take. Well, no more I say! Time to get intentional. Time to put some mental and physical energy into working on what I want to accomplish. First things first- writing them down!

So, here's what I'd like to accomplish: I want to write a book, well I want to write lots of books, but for now I'd like to write one. I want to entertain. I want to tell a story. I want to create a world that I'd like to be apart of, and can go and escape to when life gets tough. I want to create characters that I'd like to be- or know. I want to take them on adventures and places I'm scared to go. I want to write a book that people read and say "I was entertained. I fell in love. I want to go there. I want to be this character, or I feel like I already know that character. I want to live in that world, and for a week or two I did."

I have a number of fears going into such a huge undertaking. The first one is my insecurities. I'm not the best writer, I am no grammar genius. I know my novel will take LOTS of help and support before it would be presentable. The second thing I'm worried about is the time and energy it will take to accomplish this goal. Some days I get to the end of the day and I barely have enough energy to brush my teeth, much less sit at my computer and create a world. My last worry is probably the most obvious, but I'm scared of being rejected. I realize that people will hate my work. I realize it won't be everyone's cup of tea, and honestly I think I'm ok with that, at least I hope I am. How do you really ever know something like that until  you're there? That is both the simple truth and the scariest thought, you don't know until you know. So, here goes, I want to know so I have to go and find out. Cheers to the big leap, and intentionally pursuing something you want! What's your big leap? What's something you really want, but have either been too scared or too disorganized to go after it?